[A dopey grin stretches across his face. To think, just before that intense makeout session happened, Ren was so nervous Akechi would reject him outright.]
But I’m OK with holding back as long as I need to. Until you’re sure it’s what you really want.
[It’s painfully clear to Ren who the him is that Akechi references. For as dark of a shadow Shido cast on Ren’s life through a momentary twist of fate, it can’t compare to the murk the man spread over the life of his own son. Ren can only imagine the horror of living with that sort of legacy.
Ren’s arm pulls tighter around Akechi, and he bends his head to place a soft kiss in his hair.]
He doesn’t have any power over you anymore, and he never will again. You can be free of him now.
[He knows it’s not that simple. A few encouraging words can’t erase nearly two decades of suffering. The trauma Akechi carries from his father won’t be undone by simply willing it so.]
There’s no deadline with me, and even if you never feel comfortable doing more, I will still love you just as much as I do now. Which, you may remember, is a lot.
[Ren smiles shyly at the idea that Akechi has thought about him, about doing more than kissing activities together, and it’s apparently not even a recent thought. It’s flattering to hear his more-than-rival has at least had some thoughts of him as more than a rival for longer than Ren knew his own feelings.
Ah, but the immediate backtracking, that’s no good. Ren begins to slowly trace soft arcs with his thumb over the small of Akechi’s back, an attempt to soothe those insecurities.]
I’ve never thought you’re anything like them. The fact that you care so much about not being like them is proof you’re different.
[He leans in to drop another kiss meant to reassure, this time at his forehead.]
Would it help if … I mean, we should talk about it before we start doing anything, but would it help you feel less … unsure, I guess? If we talked about what you’ve thought about doing first? So we both know what we both want or don’t want. Um, not right this second, unless you want to.
[Ren pauses for a moment, considering whether to say more. But it’s only fair; Akechi trusted him with a secret, and Ren should reciprocate.]
[Those little touches along his back make him gasp, albeit softly. Perhaps he should have anticipated it. Ren's been fairly affectionate of late.
It's... not bad. He arches his back a little to make things easier for Ren. When Ren kisses him again, he makes no effort to protest.]
Therein lies the dilemma, really. I'm not entirely certain where to start. I've gathered the necessary supplies, but the logistics of how we'd begin are more nebulous.
[Which is kinda how Akechi’s making this sound, talking about supplies and logistics. Pretty on brand for him, getting stuck in his own head and overthinking everything. Ren smiles into pressing another reassuring kiss to his forehead.]
How about this … whenever you want to try doing something more, you could … show me how you like to touch yourself, then let me take over? Would that be OK?
VERY WELL PAST SUGGESTIVE CW for what they're talking about, haha
[It’s true, they’re not going anywhere at the moment.]
… Do you want to try it now?
[They were starting to get a bit worked up earlier, before Ren’s big mouth put a sudden halt to everything. Maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea to pick that up again, now that they’ve talked more. Ren’s fingertips lightly brush lazy spirals one Akechi’s back, now meant less for soothing and more for an invitation.]
We were supposed to be resting … but I’d be fine with resting after, if you wanted to.
[Ren thinks he would probably have an easier time resting if he were able to do something more active and definite to make amends for his most recent mistakes, something to prove the depth of his devotion to his more-than-rival. It’s not the only reason he’s interested, but it’s not negligible as a factor.]
[Oh. His breath hitches at the touch, but at least this time it isn't as surprising. The last time Ren had asked, it had all been so fresh. He'd barely settled into the idea of... this. All of it. The love, the affection...
But Ren has been here for several months now. The reality of their circumstances has settled upon him.
So, drawing a breath, he responds by carefully tracing a talon down Ren's chest.]
We might as well. Words can only convey so much in the end.
[While it’s true that words are limited as a means of expression for what they’re discussing, some words are still needed. Ren playfully raises an eyebrow.]
“Might as well”? That - ah, that doesn’t sound very enthusiastic.
[It’s difficult to maintain composure with that teasing talon’s touch quickening his pulse and sparking slow heat to build. Ren slips his hand to settle around to Akechi’s hip, rubbing his thumb over the curve of bone. He leans in and lowers his voice to a sultry murmur:]
Yes … or no?
THESE DUMBASSES... but we will FTB/timeskip accordingly xD
[Well, Akechi, if you answer the question directly the first time, Ren won't need to resort to such tactics!
The nip at his neck is not unwelcome, though - Ren gasps quietly and shivers. Delightful. Maybe they can work on more of that later. Right now, Ren's sole focus is on Akechi, on what he can do to make this boy he loves so much - his rival, his flip side of the proverbial coin - feel wholly and undeniably treasured.]
Much better, [he says, grinning, and leans in to wrap Akechi into a deep, slow kiss - the first of many to come.]
[Akechi has no idea what he's doing. Dreams, fantasies... None of that compares to reality. He always pictured himself as more assertive. More charismatic.
But the fact is, this is all so much. Being loved, accepting that love...
The kiss is a familiar enough start, but as they maneuver their way through this uncharted domain, he remains awkward. Perhaps even a bit nervous, though he'd never admit it outright...
But it's just them. He may be barely human at this point, but no one can rob him of this moment.]
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[A dopey grin stretches across his face. To think, just before that intense makeout session happened, Ren was so nervous Akechi would reject him outright.]
But I’m OK with holding back as long as I need to. Until you’re sure it’s what you really want.
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[Surrendering to the weight of his words, he slumps forward, forehead falling toward Ren's. At least he's mindful of his horns.]
I don't want to restrain myself purely because of him.
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[It’s painfully clear to Ren who the him is that Akechi references. For as dark of a shadow Shido cast on Ren’s life through a momentary twist of fate, it can’t compare to the murk the man spread over the life of his own son. Ren can only imagine the horror of living with that sort of legacy.
Ren’s arm pulls tighter around Akechi, and he bends his head to place a soft kiss in his hair.]
He doesn’t have any power over you anymore, and he never will again. You can be free of him now.
[He knows it’s not that simple. A few encouraging words can’t erase nearly two decades of suffering. The trauma Akechi carries from his father won’t be undone by simply willing it so.]
There’s no deadline with me, and even if you never feel comfortable doing more, I will still love you just as much as I do now. Which, you may remember, is a lot.
cw for implied sa mention
It's not as though I haven't thought about it before, you know. Particularly after the bathhouse.
[There. He admits it. He has... well. He's a teenager still. Of course he's had urges.]
Obviously, it wasn't something I intended to act on at the time. Again, I am not like him. Or all the men who used my mother.
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Ah, but the immediate backtracking, that’s no good. Ren begins to slowly trace soft arcs with his thumb over the small of Akechi’s back, an attempt to soothe those insecurities.]
I’ve never thought you’re anything like them. The fact that you care so much about not being like them is proof you’re different.
[He leans in to drop another kiss meant to reassure, this time at his forehead.]
Would it help if … I mean, we should talk about it before we start doing anything, but would it help you feel less … unsure, I guess? If we talked about what you’ve thought about doing first? So we both know what we both want or don’t want. Um, not right this second, unless you want to.
[Ren pauses for a moment, considering whether to say more. But it’s only fair; Akechi trusted him with a secret, and Ren should reciprocate.]
I’ve thought about it too.
[That’s pretty normal, right?]
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It's... not bad. He arches his back a little to make things easier for Ren. When Ren kisses him again, he makes no effort to protest.]
Therein lies the dilemma, really. I'm not entirely certain where to start. I've gathered the necessary supplies, but the logistics of how we'd begin are more nebulous.
[What would he want? That's the true question.]
cw well past suggestive but tryna be tactful
[Which is kinda how Akechi’s making this sound, talking about supplies and logistics. Pretty on brand for him, getting stuck in his own head and overthinking everything. Ren smiles into pressing another reassuring kiss to his forehead.]
How about this … whenever you want to try doing something more, you could … show me how you like to touch yourself, then let me take over? Would that be OK?
VERY WELL PAST SUGGESTIVE CW for what they're talking about, haha
[He stops to look at his hands.]
Better you than me, anyway. These talons haven't exactly made it easy.
[Not that he's particularly taken the time to indulge in such a way. He had far too much else on his mind. Survival chief among them.]
at least they're talking about it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Guess it's a good thing I like a challenge, huh?
[Ren grins again and this time, leaves a lingering kiss on Akechi's lips. You know, while he still has them.]
So we'll start there. Whenever you feel like you want to try it out, just let me know. We'll figure this out together, a step at a time.
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[He reciprocates the kiss, mindful of his teeth. Making Ren's lip bleed would not be ideal.]
It's not as though we're going anywhere.
back to cw city for more than suggestive and ren’s bad brain i’m sorry
… Do you want to try it now?
[They were starting to get a bit worked up earlier, before Ren’s big mouth put a sudden halt to everything. Maybe it wouldn’t be a bad idea to pick that up again, now that they’ve talked more. Ren’s fingertips lightly brush lazy spirals one Akechi’s back, now meant less for soothing and more for an invitation.]
We were supposed to be resting … but I’d be fine with resting after, if you wanted to.
[Ren thinks he would probably have an easier time resting if he were able to do something more active and definite to make amends for his most recent mistakes, something to prove the depth of his devotion to his more-than-rival. It’s not the only reason he’s interested, but it’s not negligible as a factor.]
TEENAGERS SURE ARE... teenagers.
But Ren has been here for several months now. The reality of their circumstances has settled upon him.
So, drawing a breath, he responds by carefully tracing a talon down Ren's chest.]
We might as well. Words can only convey so much in the end.
THEY SURE ARE … cw above the belt touching
“Might as well”? That - ah, that doesn’t sound very enthusiastic.
[It’s difficult to maintain composure with that teasing talon’s touch quickening his pulse and sparking slow heat to build. Ren slips his hand to settle around to Akechi’s hip, rubbing his thumb over the curve of bone. He leans in and lowers his voice to a sultry murmur:]
Yes … or no?
THESE DUMBASSES... but we will FTB/timeskip accordingly xD
Yes, Ren.
[For that, he'll... lightly nip at his neck? Emphasis on light. It is not his goal to break skin.
It sounded attractive in his head, okay?]
iiiiit's showtime~
The nip at his neck is not unwelcome, though - Ren gasps quietly and shivers. Delightful. Maybe they can work on more of that later. Right now, Ren's sole focus is on Akechi, on what he can do to make this boy he loves so much - his rival, his flip side of the proverbial coin - feel wholly and undeniably treasured.]
Much better, [he says, grinning, and leans in to wrap Akechi into a deep, slow kiss - the first of many to come.]
obligatory emotional ftb/timeskip goes here xD
But the fact is, this is all so much. Being loved, accepting that love...
The kiss is a familiar enough start, but as they maneuver their way through this uncharted domain, he remains awkward. Perhaps even a bit nervous, though he'd never admit it outright...
But it's just them. He may be barely human at this point, but no one can rob him of this moment.]